It still seems too awful to even contemplate.
I wonder every day how Fiona Donohoe is coping, it must hurt to even breathe at home surrounded by her beautiful son Noah's possessions.
His guitar, on which he was recorded playing a song for her, his books, his sports equipment, his school uniform he posed in so proudly on his first day at St Malachy's College, a place he loved.
Noah was her pride and joy, her one and only, and she was raising him to be a gentleman, educated, opinionated and compassionate.
She was also raising him alone and doing a fine job, a wonderful, physical demonstration of how those who parent alone do not deserve the stereotyping they sometimes receive.
This intelligent, musical, sporty, loving and rounded young man, the product of a mother's love. All credit should go to her for what she managed to achieve in those 14 years.
The circumstances of Noah's disappearance and his discovery almost a week later, immediately raised questions.
Questions that as a journalist I felt compelled to ask.
However, the social media around this child's death has been nothing short of scandalous and those who have helped fuel it by allowing their platforms to carry the opinions of Facebook detectives must either be blinded by their own insensitivity or simply not care that there is a family grieving at the centre.
Complete strangers thinking it is their place to make Police Ombudsman complaints based on conjecture.
The Donohoe family may well be looking at a complaint to the ombudsman, one that will be informed by facts and their in-depth knowledge of the investigation, and not online amateur detective work.
The ombudsman has a duty to regularly liaise with any complainant, in this case the family.
What makes some stranger think they have the right to be progressing this process and be privy to the private details of an investigation into a young boy's death?
Part of this distasteful and at times quite vulgar online frenzy has been a criticism of the press.
I am not averse to public criticism, my job comes with a profile, my work should at all times stand up to scrutiny.
I know that at times we all get tarred with the same brush - and there are sections of the press that do themselves no favours in that department - but I can assure the readers of this paper that there is no media blackout, no campaign to hide or cover up any aspect of this tragedy.
I and others have at all times taken my lead from the family, and will move with them at a pace they feel comfortable with.
In order for any journalist's work to stand up to robust scrutiny it must be based on facts and not conspiracy.
Fiona Donohoe is an intelligent and educated woman, she has been privy to the details of the investigation into her son's death and has also by this stage seen the results of the post mortem.
Details that the Facebook detectives do not have.
It is for her as the mother of Noah to look at all that information and decide what happens next.
She and her family have concerns and questions that need answered, this is not a surprise to those journalists reporting sensitively and in line with the family's wishes.
They have the support of solicitor Niall Murphy to navigate them through what can be a difficult process.
If they do not get the answers they require I will be there along with colleagues to put pressure on those agencies withholding information.
The unbearable grief of losing a child I cannot even begin to understand, to have that child subjected to distasteful and all sorts of public speculation must be impossible to ignore.
It's not always possible to leave a job behind at the end of the day, I think of Fiona Donhoe often and will continue to think of her as she navigates her way through circumstances that resulted in the death of her only child.
The family have handled themselves with incredible dignity and should be praised for that. Maybe that rather than speculation should be at the foremost of people's minds going forward.
